The immediate urge is to make yourself as comfortable as possible. To be safe, to avoid conflict, to be smart, right and in control. Control is an illusion. So is safety. You cannot protect yourself from disasters or conflict or fear or failure. It doesn’t matter how kind, smart or prepared you are. Things just happen. To everyone.
You might get sick. You might lose someone you love. You might lose your secure home and money. We all like to think we can prevent these things. We buy insurance. We do the research and plan. We get a good job. We eat well and exercise, trying to keep it all at bay.
The only thing to do is to live fully. Be messy and uncertain. Lose track of things and then figure them out. Calculate some risks and sometimes jump blindly, but by all means risk. Expect that the universe will catch you more often than it won’t.
“To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest.To live fully is to be always in no-man’s land, to experience each moment as completely new and fresh” -Pema Chodron
*This week my kids started full-language immersion Italian school. I’m floored by their courage and in love with their teachers. None of us know what the hell we are doing, but we are doing it.
That thing you think you can’t do but kind of want to?
Decide and begin.